Hi all

My DH is 27 in Sep and Im 27 in Nov, we've been married 2 yrs in Nov, and together for 5...

I just found out my 2 best friends are pregnant, and while im so overjoyed for them i can help feeling sad that we're not officialy TTC yet.

I have had the pangs of wanting to have a child of our own for around 3 years now and since oct 07 we havent been "careful" with protection...meaning we arent using anything.

We arent timing or "charting" or really verbalising anything, i do sneak a peak at my ovulation calender sometimes, Im positive that im ready and my husband seems ready, and it isnt helping that he says things like "if it happens now thats great, and if not thats ok too" and you know, he's doing "mothery" things to our pets & me at times... (nursing them, talking oohh & aaahh & playing games and things) and it doesnt help the fact that i would like to go ahead.

When i found out about my 2 friends last night it was like a blow to the stomach, i felt sick and sad and annoyed and the response i got after him probing me to tell him what i was feeling down about, was " dont be like this it makes me feel pressured" i cant help the emotional response i get and there was a good reason i didnt want to say why i was feeling down, because i didnt want to hear the whole "im not ready" thing..Then this morning DH comes in and says he is excited to have kids and cant wait and we'll have gorgeous babies..

I got annoyed and told him to not say that because him saying stuff like that makes me more sad/angry/confused/annoyed that we arent trying!! Are there other women feel it too?? I want to be patient and wait for him but i dont know how to curb that feeling of wanting a baby...

Please help? Im considering seeing a counseller and taking him with me when i have been a few times.

Eliza