Okay still waiting for AF!!! feel like it is coming
LOOK OUT TMI about to come but when I wipe its just fertile EWM and loads of it!!!
Sore boobs..but not much else..enough to make me think if this is menopause..it sucks..I can't imagine my boobs feeling like this all the time.
I really can't remember my last AF and I'm not sure if I should count the 3 days of very light spotting which would have been Feb sometime..we only DTD once without protection and I can't really recall a date etc..but it would have been before this light spotty...and now I can't get out of my head maybe that was an implanatation bleed!!! geez..

I am really reluctant to go back to the docs because I spend half my life there already and i am am sick of looking stupid...I have done a docs urine test which was my first + but very faint and can't be sure if it came up after the time..because I looked at it before i was about to throw it away..I took that test to the docs and he said that it could'nt be counted and ordered the BT which came back neg but with no numbers since then I have done 2 crystal clear test 3 days apart first came up with a faint + right at max time next came up with a very faint line as the pee went up the stick but so faint that I had to keep looking at it..those test have a shiny cover so the light hits it and is hard to see but its there..fainter tahn the previous one though I should have waited untilt he mornign but figured it was 3 days later it should still come up plus I had a bee in my bonnett and could'nt wait any longer once I had started thinkin g about it again...whne it was fainter I decided just to wait it out expecting to bleed in the next few days..but nope nothing yet!!

Everything I read says sperm can't live for more than 6 months after a VAS..and given the fact his did'nt increase they consider it was an effective operation..but as I said to him last night when he had his second test done..it would ahve been closer to 12 months and it still had live sperm..so if i am I hope this is recorded somewhere..other than that maybe its my imagiantion?? or perhaps a phantom pregnancy( OMG that would be awful..but my body has been preganant so many times before and at about this timing what if it decided to do that to me) ??? menopause?? stress?? I have been more stressed before and still gotten AF... I have never missed an AF I am either on time or early except for when I am BFP
I really don't think I am..it just does'nt seem posible??? but the thought keeps creeping back in....just because of AF absence..
and Kerry they don't refund..they send a letter home to cover their asses..saying that it can reattatch etc...and DH is at fault here as well..by not going to have testing done everytime I have had to hound him to do it..and even now he can't remember where he put the request form....sooo angry with him. Apparently the doc told him to go home have sex and withdraw to clear the sperm out..I told DH to get lost!!!! after getting preg with Tilly there was no way that I would take that chance..but apparently i will..I guess you just think there is no way there could be live sperm after all that time..and being that much older really what are the chances??
Not good I would think..so again i don't think I am..but I am goign to have to go again and make sure nothing more sinister is going on..any thoughts on reasons why HCG would be happening? I can't find any reasons when i google it.