Natalia, it seems with your recent struggles inside about when to have a family, that you have been searching for an answer. I think the offer from Uni is a sign. The course will allow you to put off your decision and any children you have in the future will have the benefit of a better educated mummy who will be able to demand better pay and conditions and provide well for her kids.

I get the feeling from some of the things you said that something has happened to you in your past which has made you frightened of sex and really committing to a relationship. No, a relationship is never all romance and roses, but it shouldn't be hardship or distress either. I have recovered from child sexual abuse in my past and i urge you to seek help to deal with whatever happened to you, so you can move forwards and find happiness and companionship and love, love you are SURE of, in the future.

Your landlady has been honest with you and that's brilliant! How much better to hear that now than to hear "Move out" when you are already PG?

I get the impression you have a lot of love to give Natalia, ALOT of love, and that is a beautiful thing. But first you need to love YOU, before you can love a baby. Loving a child can be incredibly painful, at times it is totally thankless caring for a child, and it is so hard doing it alone, believe me.

Concentrate on your studies, get yourself some counselling to sort out how you feel about relationships and the future, get yourself a great career going, and love will find you - it always comes to the loving and you are very loving. THen you can bring your children into the best position possible and watch them grow with minimum hardship to yourself and maximum pride in your mothering skills.

Bx