That's fair enough - a baby makes an enormous impact on a house, inconveniences everyone who lives in it, and I can understand her point of view, it is a lot to impose on someone.

Congratulations on getting into uni! Isn't it incredible that people failed to RSVP! Still, their loss is your gain. Concentrate on getting your psych degree, get some counselling, and think about children again when you are ready.

The unconditional love of a child is not going to heal your pain. You need to be healed first - the world is full of children who have been damaged by damaged parents.

I hope things work out for you,