Want to get pregnant but scared and confussed

[Phteven]

it's not an easy choice to make, after all having children is a massive, life-long commitment but it's also very rewarding and it can be alot of fun.
I wasn't sure if I wanted children when my partner was really keen to have them but I knew he would be a great Dad so I just put my trust in that. If the worst came to the worst and I proved to be a hopeless mother than DH could be the primary carer.
You can do tours of the maternity wards before you commit to one.
As far as I know Auburn and Blacktown hospital both have facilities for waterbirths.
To have a baby at home you will need a midwife to attend. Many of them will allow you to pay in installments and also use you baby bonus to assist you to pay.

Maybe you would benefit from some counselling to help you with relaxation tequniques - you could talk to your GP about this.

[Jessykasmum]

I don't have much advice for you except this one thing...

Children are the most rewarding thing in life, to feel the baby kicking inside you, to birthing him/her and watching him/her grow and discover new things - it's wonderful. I couldn't imagine my life without my kids. They bring laughter and happiness into my day.

Probably not the answer you were looking for, but like PP suggested maybe a little counceling would help you with the issues you're going through.

GL!