Thank you all for your comments and advice.

Mildez, like you, my fertile period comes around and we are at a loss - it really is ridiculous!! Do we or don't we?? Condoms, pull out... leave it to chance?? We have always been very fertile, although I am a little older now (36). I feel like 'leaving it to chance' is really making the decision to have another, and that makes me feel anxious!

So each month, as I near O I feel very broody... then O comes around and I panic and either avoid DTD or tell DH to pull out. (Sorry TMI!!) Last month, I had a very faint positive (likely an evap line!) on a HPT and even then I felt very undecided - not entirely excited, but not terribly disappointed.

My DH will be 40 in a few months and he wants to try until then. If it doesn't happen then it 'isn't meant to be'... but I reckon we should make a decision one way or another!

It is driving me mad, this indecision!!