That's a good question Melody... Why do we attach a persona to it?

For me, some months it's no big deal & just an ordinary thing that doesn't bother me. At other times though, depending on other circumstances usually, it's devastating. It is like an end to a dream, when you have calculated out when you'd be due & how you're going to announce it because you are so sure, it's tough to see the end to that.

Being a long termer I think sends you one way or the other - either you are not surprised when AF arrives kinda like "here we go again" or it hits you like a ton of bricks that it's yet another month that you aren't pregnant........