It was 7 weeks ago that I admitted that I have a problem with food. I can no longer control what I eat. Often, once I start eating I will keep eating till I feel sick. I think about eating a lot and I eat in private, not public. It hurts me, my health and my relationships. Thinking about trying to control what I eat, thinking about my weight, makes me feel out of control, ashamed and desparate. I have been getting better that food control over the past 7 weeks, but have only lost 5.5kg (that includes losing more and regaining it twice!). (And there is a lot more to go!)
Like an alcoholic, once I start, I can't stop. I am thinking of doing diet shakes again - because I can't stop at just one portion of food. Like Nettie, I am working on breaking my carb addiction as well.
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