Eating Anonymous

[Nettie]

Mmm... we get a lunch van come around at morning tea time (one of my weak times throughout the day).. they have Balfours cakes... Mmmmm...

[Ryatha]

mmmm balfours cakes mmmm, that would be hard

Ok, I avoided eating after dinner last night and went to bed instead and breakfast was yogurt and museli, lunch is going to be rice and vindaloo... seems like I am on track at the moment

[Turkish Delight]

My name is TD and i have been FAT my whole entire life, except for those periods where i lost weight to look pretty. I have been a yo-yo dieter all my life. When i am thin, i am the fat person stuck in a skinny body. I love food. I love the tastes, texture, aroma, cooking etc.. I am addicted to food.
In 2008, i began a weightloss journey. In 18 months, i lost 15kgs. The last 5 kgs stuck. In August 2009, whilst i was on anti-depressants i found out of this miracle diet drug, Duromine. I pursuaded the dr. to give it to me. I now have only 5 days before i am admitted into a private psychiatric clinic.
I used to be obsessed about my weight, about the way i look. I'm not anymore. Even though i hate my rolls of fat, i am very happy with my weight. I can eat anything i want, and i do. I only come on this Earth once, and i will experience all its beauties that it has to offer.
I've given up on dieting/weightloss, as long as there are no health issues for me, i will keep on eating and drinking the things i want to. I finally accept who i am. I'm not the one with the problem, its those that can't accept me for who i am, who have the problem.
My mental well-being is far more important than stupid number on clothes tags, or on the bathroom scale.

BTW, goodluck Cat!

[Nettie]

That's great TD that you've found your peace. I, however, am NOT happy with my body. I feel tired all the time and feel awkward and uncomfortable. I need to lose some weight.

So today I began my plan to get rid of my carb addiction. It went ok (had a few carbs at dinner - but made myself stop and not have seconds) so will aim for another good day tomorrow. Luckily I was busy at work when the van came, so no Balfours for me today!

I bought some nut, seed and sultana mix from the supermarket to snack on at work - and it wasn't half bad! It helped get rid of the need to eat something worse, anyway!

go Cat! You can doooo iiiiiitttttttt!

[Ryatha]

Welcome TD Thank you for sharing. I too am trying to learn to love my body. I want to be comfortable in my skin, loveing my curves but I feel like I am bigger than I should be. I will be thinking of you when you are in the clinic and hoping you get lots of support.

Toni - thanks for being my fan club I am feeling pretty good ATM. Dinner was at 5.30 and even though I was really hungry about half an hour ago I ate some dates and am about to go to bed, rather than eating more. Good on you for not eating those carbs. I have heard if you go cold turkey with carbs it makes the cravings even worse so treat yourself a bit yeah?

I was also thinking, being addicted to eating I have accepted that I will crave the foods all the time, but I will just eat when required, rather than all the time. I've watched AA members struggle with their addiction and when they give in once, it is easier to give in again, and then again, and they fall off the wagon. But if they can refrain from that first drink, then they are ok.

So it has been 2 days since I gave in to my eating addiction (17/7/10)

[jesses_girl]

Hey, just wanted you to know you got me motivated to start exercising! I usto be able to run about 10k up and down hills, then i stopped from a knee injury buuut i loooove running!! I also love chocolate and milo and milk and pies and sitting on my bum watching dr phil and oprah haha, I now weigh 72kg after having bubs i would like to get back down to 55-57kgs and be able to run the 10k again! I went for a run yesterday and could only really manage 1k :-o and i felt all jiggly and wobbling everywhere. Eventually one day i'd like to do a half marathon, thats my goal :-)