I had concerns about putting myself first too - it's almost expected by society that to be a good wife and mum, you always have to consider your needs last, right?

WRONG!

By putting yourself first in this instance, you will eventually be a healthier mum for your husband and kids, so this is as much for them as you. Don't you forget that!
omg i couldnt have said that but that is exactly what I mean!!

I need to have a healthier mind and I feel so depressed being this big. I know im unhealthy and its starting to eat away at me (not the bad parts of me unfortuneately)
I also want to be a good role model to my kids and I beleive in eating correctly, exercising and being able to step aside and be me is completely healthy for us all.

Thank you all for your support.....I thank you whole heartedly. Its very hard to finalyl admit that I have a problem within myself and im going to find this all very theraputic.

Your all wonderful