I'm not reading replies before I answer.

Am I a "good" person in your eyes? Loving, caring, responsive, "good" mother?

I had "fair-to-bad" parents, in my eyes, and was emotionally abused and neglected. This has caused years of depression, low self-worth, lead to anorexia and self-harm... it's not pretty.

I may look good on the outside, but inside I'm a hollow shell of a person.

That's why I want to be a "good" parent - so my DS will at least be beautiful on the inside. Of course I want his actions to beautify him and glorify God, but I want that to come from a place of peace not fear and loathing.