How are you going on your journey Fleur?

As others have said just making the decision to change is the first step. I would also highly recommend the book 'you can heal your life'. I received it years ago and just couldn't get into it. It felt so foreign and the concepts so ridiculous that I thought it would never help me, at first I thought it was implying that everything that has happened is my fault and I reflected back on things from my childhood and thought 'how is that in any way my fault?' and gave up on the book almost immediately. Since then however, I have changed and matured and experienced a lot more. I suffered PND which again raised things from the past and I realised that I had to do something to heal myself and so I had some counselling. I found it quite helpful as it was basically teaching me to reassess my thought patterns, to question my thoughts and see if what I was thinking really was true or whether I was still thinking certain things or in certain ways that were no longer relevant to me at this stage in my life. I then started reading the book again and realised that the concepts were very much the same. This time I really took to the book and found it incredibly helpful. It's all about accepting yourself and loving yourself as that is the ultimate way of achieving happiness, changing negative thought patterns and letting go of the past.

I hope you are starting to feel better these days.

Fi