thank you everyone.

I have told a couple of friends the full story... one today and I was hoping she would be able to help me with DD. Our girls are best friends and go to the same creche. I was hoping she would offer to help with DD if my shift means I can't collect her or something... but she wasn't keen. I would consider her my closest friend here in Vic. I have wonderful friends in other States who would help in a heart beat... but I don't want to uproot DD if I can help it. If DH and I do split, it will be hard enough on her without moving her from creche and her friends.

I know there are so many people who have done this (under worse conditions) before me... and survived... and I've been through so much in my life (many of it worse than this) and survived... but what if I can't survive this? What if this is the straw that breaks the camel's back?

Squid - I honestly don't know my worth any more. I'm full of self doubt... I've been doing a particular activity for a relatively short period of time which has slowly increased my confidence... which is the only reason I'm even able to contemplate leaving DH... but I couldn't tell you what I'm worth. I don't feel like I'm worth that much. I "know" I'm worth more than this... but I can't really accept that. DD, however, she is worth everything. But I feel like she deserves more than I could give her as a single parent - and I'm not talking about material things.

This is tearing me apart, breaking my heart, and doing my head in. This is the most difficult decision I have ever had to make.