Thanks girls I know what you mean about trying not to think about it too much... I think my problem is that I think too much in general, about everything... i wish i could just get up and DO.... without actually analysing my predicament LOL I like to think I'm good at spontaneity but sometimes I'd just love a bit of predictability... just for a little while...

here's me going to bed... wishing that i could rest in the knowledge that i will be getting 6 hours uninterrupted rest... well, it does happen, sometimes.