Simone- I am so sorry to hear things have come to this, Kerry has very good advice and I would hope for your safety you would follow some of these. Have you rang a help line or gone to centrelink to try and get someone to help you? They should have someone who can advise you where to go and what to do, so that you can at least set yourself up and spend some quality time with the most important people in your life, the kids, at xmas time.

Good luck with everything
Michelle