Trillian is right. I thought it was guilt but it was really sadness. For me,BF was the last thing left that I had wanted for my baby and for me, which hadn't been completely effed up and interfered with. It was an uphill battle from the moment I was separated from DS. My milk came in on day 7! He was comp fed right from birth because I was just not there to feed him the.first few days.

I think it's important to grieve the loss of your BF relationship. But never feel guilty. The fact that you tried so hard, and wanted to BF so much means that you're doing your job. Mothering is about nurturing., and you're making a tough decision to nourish your child. Now THAT is one hell of a mum, if you ask me. I still feel sad sometimes, but I remind myself to deal with things as they are, not how I wish they were.