det - you have me worried again now! but it is reasuring to hear that your mum has done so well and is now cancer free and has been for 5 years! thats awesome

Marydean - hahaha your right about it not being a convo you can have around the morning tea table, i can't even tell my DH! ringing a doctor tomorrow! hope i can get in.

jackrose - we talk openly about death and dying to DD1 (3yrs), it all started when we had to put our dog down, we just thought it was the right thing to do! and now she knows that things die and go to heaven and when they do you don't get to see them again. It is reasurring to hear that your DD is saying some stuff about it too, maybe it is just a stage they are going through? im glad you think it is part of her development as opposed to an insight. I haven't been able to sleep much these last few days so really am looking forward to making a phone call to see a doctor tomorrow! THANK YOU