Thanks for all the quick replies girls! That's so nice of you.

I am aware that drugs are an option if I really can't cope, but having my SiL and BiL think I'm mad for being excited to see bubs for the first time just because SiL was so drugged up she and BiL couldn't remember how to spell niece's name, let alone be excited to see her (this was a couple of months ago)... well, I just want to be awake and alert and have Leibling awake and alert too. My mum had loads of drugs with me and I slept for my first week, needed to be woken up for feeds and mid-feed.

Anyway, over here it's such a hospital-drugs-intervention culture that it's nice to know that it doesn't have to be that way!