Still all over the place about the email.

I am booked into the local hospital and have been revieving ante natal care through them and my plan was to go there after and have the post natal check and paparework done. In writting to her i was just trying to explore the idea that it would be nice to not have to put myself and a brand new baby in a car straigth away for paperwork!

Thats what i mean i feel/felt like i had made appropriate plans for the most likely event of a quick birth.

If the risks she talks about are so high and as she suggests that i call an ambulance when i start labour then it just makes me also wonder about my last birth with her. She didnt come and check me when i called her two hours before birth and said i felt funny and was being sick. She also didnt suggest we call and ambulance when my DH called to say i was in labour and all she said when she got the call that id had the baby was "Oh i thought that might happen" Not call an ambulance. She didnt arrive for another 40mins. Way too long in the case of her scare tactics story.

She just makes me feel like all was ok that time cause id paid someone and freebirthed and this time wouldnt be ok cause i dont want to throw money away.

We ended up using a emergency pack a MW friend had sent me for the birth. My IM hadnt even set us up with cord clamps or anything. We had the O2 but not really anything else.

Oh i dont even know what the point of my dribble is about.

I suppose it comes down to the fact that i feel OB use scare tactics when it comes to birth to convince people to spend the money and i feel like she has just done the same thing!