this is what i struggled with too. i was worried that i had set the bar high and would set myself up to be disappointed. but i think the beauty of HB is that even when things dont go to plan you are still surrounded by beautiful gorgeous midwives that love you and your family and want the very best for all of you. so i focused my 'dreaming' of the birth not as expectation as such but as that, a dream, something positive to aim for ITMS.
You are amazing Cassius, so well said