I'm glad to hear that you are feeling better HotI.

The great thing is that this labour and birth will be different because you have the support of a fantastic MW. I wish that you had had her with you last time too. I think it is totally normal that you are feeling a little scared. I acknowledge that I am in a lucky position as I have the experience of 2 previous, wonderful HB's to give me strength this time around. But I have other fears. Maybe it is normal for some women to have fears anyway? I had a severe bout of mastitis when DS2 was a week old. So I have a bit of fear and anxiety around that. I also fear PPH because I heard that you are at greater risk the more births you have. So that negative thought visits me sometimes. Thankfully I can talk to my MW and she always reassures me with evidence based info, which I like.

I hope you can book in for your massage soon.