Hope the massage is just what you need, Hot1.

Don't know if it's any help, but when I think about my first c/s birth (which I now question), I remind myself that if it wasn't for that birth, I wouldn't have looked into a HB and would likely have missed out on my wonderful m/w, the great pg care and the amazing birth I had. So although I don't like what was the beginning (c/s), it was the first step on what has been the most incredible journey of my life. And no way would I change that!

DTMS?