It's hard when you have to leave someone you love, but sometimes you have to for your own good. I had to walk away from my husband after 11 years due to his drug addiction. It was really hard to do, but I did it. It was not how I planned my life at all, but then again living the way I had for a couple of years was not the way I had planned my life either.

I had a couple of years of being single and then I met my DF and we have set up a lovely life up together, we have our own home and we are trying to have a baby together.... all things I could not have ever imagined at the time I broke up with my ex.... I just felt really lost and didn't know where my life was going.

Your life will eventually move on and you will be happy again. I'd recommend that you spend as much time as you can with family and friends so you can start healing. You need to talk to them about the situation, if you haven't already, as talking about your problems really does help. If you don't have anyone to talk to please seek some counselling. There are domestic violence ads on TV, I'm sure if you called the number on them you would be put in touch with counsellors or support groups that would help you sort through your thoughts.