I left DS father when he was 6 months old.. I couldn't take the verbal and emotional abuse. Needless to say he hasn't taken it very well and there are times when I wish he would just disappear completely from our lives, as selfish as that is. He still likes to try to "put me in my place", even though he has moved to QLD. I thought I still loved him for a while and was tempted to beg him to come back to me. But I have realised that I broke up with him because I thought it would be best for me and DS. I can't very well be a good mother if I am constantly upset. It was after a fight that I realised I couldn't be with him anymore. I was upset and having a bit of a cry, and looked up to see DS looking at me and crying. I couldn't let him grow up in a household like that.

My ex seemed to feel the same way as yours does. He actually tried to threaten me into not finding anyone else. I ended up telling him I needed some space and wasn't going to talk to him if he was going to tell me things I didn't want to know (which I told him exactly what I wasn't interested in hearing). He took this as needing physical space which is why he moved. We still don't get on a 100%, have had weeks where I have to turn off my phone and feel like I'm hiding out because I don't want to deal with his derogatory remarks. But we are learning to deal with it. I try to send him emails where I only tell him details of what is going on with Logan, with photos when I can remember to take photos LOL. I don't go into any details of what I am upto so I don't give him anything to use against me. So in that way I am keeping him as involved as I can in Logans life.

I found the child support agency website quite helpful as they have some cds (plus fact sheets) on "Dealing With Separation" and other things, not just about child support. And have faith that you have done what you feel is right for you and your son, which is the most important thing.

Sorry to have rambled on. Best of luck.