Aww sweetie, sounds like my story, except I was pregnant with my second when I finally had to end it AGAIN. It will get better, it will get easier. Time does help to lessen the anguish, though it may seem as though it doesnt. You have said that you feel that you should have left along time ago, please trust in yourself. We dont know your whole story but you do so trust in the feelings that you have. I would try to have a break for a while and try to establish a relationship for your child with his father..it does take time to establish and no doubt there will be hiccups on the way, please stay strong.

Jo