Thanks Lenny, Corely & Worrywart. Its really re-assurring to have such positive comments when you need them the most. I think it makes sense to me to make myself happy without trying to please my pregnant friends. Its impossible for them to know what I'm going thru nor would I want them to, so distance between us is probably the best thing for now. Does anyone else get anxious and think of a life without children? I don't know what I would do without them but it just seems like ivf and conceiving & having a live birth is an impossible dream......