Had my learners since 2004. Huge driving phobia since my dad just put me in a car in the back paddock at 16, I'd never driven before, was by myself with my 3yo bro in the back for no real reason except it was a good place to keep him still apparently, and I had an accident, I was going through a gate and hit the fence post. The car was our ONLY car, and mum and dad scared blue murder at me for 1. wrecking the car (well, I broke the lights on one side and the bonnet buckled a little, and 2. that my bro was in the back.

Plus a few other experiences. I get my confidence back a little, and drive for a while, and then something happens, like at the end of '07 we were driving to Rocky and in was dusk, and a bunch of trucks with their bright headlights blinded me and I just flipped out, swerved off the road, almost flipped the car. I haven't really driven since, well i started to 2 months after Jazz was born, but that faded out.

I'd love to have my license, but even thinking about driving is making my heart race.

TBH, I actually feel really ashamed. My SIL and neice tease me that my neice, who is 16 got her learners in January, will get her license before me. And then my MIL does the whole "how are you going to feel if you need to go to the hospital and you can't and something happens to Jazz". It's horrible, and I feel so embarrassed and ashamed whenever the topic of driving comes up, because I WANT my license, and to be able to drive around without having to take public transport, and know in an emergency that I can get Jazz to the dr or hospital, but its just not that easy