Hey grrrls - well the long and the short of it was the fortune teller told me to take a break as I am the one causing the tension in my house!!! A bit upsetting to hear, but right on the money. She also said "is your son here yet". So that was pretty good.

So have decided to have a break for 3 months, and get back to appreciating what I have. What with my Mum having surgery next week, a kidney out no less, Dad with Alzehiemers, DH having a stomach complaint as yet undiagnosed, just a cold for me and DD, plus everything else, its a bit much going into a cyce and my mind set wasn't good. I just didn't think it would work.

So I have felt very sad yesterday and today, as stuff I have been holding came up, and am going to see the IVF councellor tomorrow (another tip from the fortune teller) to get it all out, so I can have a good rest and come back fresh. My friend who is 43 and an inspiration, had her boy yesterday, went to see him today. So little!!!

I could have cried a river with delight, sadness, relief that he is here safely, etc etc.

Cancelling all my appointments, IVF, AP, np, and no pills or potions for a little while.

Good luck to you all, will pop in now and then.

Sam