Bec, offering you a big hug and I am sorry you had to undergo so much pain and suffering for no outcome. I hope you can get some answers and find a way forward soon. But until then be gentle with yourself. It is ok to grieve, you have experienced loss, loss that we in here understand and recognise. I wish I had some other words to offer you

Hugs to all of you, especially those doing it tough ATM
xx