Thanks for the support guys. I did go and see a counsellor but I didn't find it useful unfortunately. I am however feeling a lot better which helps. Mentally I am just exhausted by everything but the silver lining is that I love my husband so much and all of this stuff makes me realise how happy he makes me. I guess you take what positives you can get out of it (Sorry I know that sounds sappy, but there have been some really rough times, so that really does mean a lot).
Have emailed the clinic today with questions about our cycle and making sure that they are prepared for our meeting. I want serious answers about our cycle and a potential plan for a possible future cycle.
Murray wants us to give up on ivf and focus on adoption, but the more i think about it, the more I want to try just once more in Nov/Dec. Don't know how we will get the funds but the thought lingers...
Lou - I hope you are okay. My work do know about IVF but I think they are tired of it all, this is our 9th cycle so sick of the excuses I am sending you a huge virtual hug, you have gone through so much and I am so sorry you are dealing with this xx
Holly - I think you are right, everyone needs a hug right now. I wish we all lived closer together so we could catch up and have gentle caring hugs :-) Glad you are cycling again.
Loula and Bec - you have both been in my thoughts ... I know there's not much to say, but I am thinking of you both ...
When I get really down, I tell myself that we all always come out the other end (even if it's not the "end" you imagined), it's just a matter of finding the way there...and it's always brighter than when in the middle of finding the way...pretty silly, but it helps me sometimes
Ladies the support in this thread is truly amazing, it has brought me to tears. The strength that each of us poses is unbelievable.
Bec i couldn't agree with you more about what you have said about your DH, mine is my rock and without him i do not know where i would be, although recent events have pushed him to question. he also told me tonight that he has had enough, enough that ALL our conversations are about the same thing, i felt terrible however explained that the physical pain i feel every day is a consent reminder.
I am glad that you have some questions lined up fro your clinic and good that you have been able to email them so that they can too prepare so that you can get the correct or up to date information from them.
I feel like all Dr, FS are avoiding me at the moment and have to wait still for next Tuesday, this is driving me insane.
Holly again so glad that you are cycling again.
WLAB i hope that you are feeling better and that your temp is under control. praying that ap will assist you with egg production and long awaited BFP.
M2C - not long now for you
Julie, thank you for keeping me in your thoughts, its a long road but you are right we find the strength and continue or at least come out the other end.
i am thinking of you all and hoping that this thread brings some good news soon, sorry for those that i have misses in this post
Oh Bec - it really is the hardest thing but I'm glad you are feeling better. Sometimes I don't know how any of us manage to continue on with life as if everything is OK when inside our hopes and dreams are crumbling.
I find work really hard some days and a great distraction on other days. Even when it is distracting me though, I am not as interested in work as I used to be.
A big thank you to everyone though, without your posts I think I would have been a pathetic mess long before now.
Popping to in write I hope everyone had a restful weekend, you know I am thinking of you all.
Lou, gl for Tuesday hun, I hope these FS's come to some sort of agreement
Bec, hope your symptoms are settling down, and you can rest your body, I am sure you will find the strength to continue
Holly, Good luck for Stims this week
Hi to M2Chloe, Julie, MsPink, Briget, Dusty and all you loverlies I might have missed
AFM; the only one cycling atm, I am injecting away, I completly forgot my syneral last night, Im not going to stress about it, I am sure they allow for this is the dosage at some stage, someone will miss one dose one day. Scan and E2 this coming Friday, then this time next week I will be preparing for EPU, all being well.
Did anyone see this weeks new idea, Simone Buchanan preg at 41 with first attemp at ivf at monash, one blast transfered. Ohhhh to be so lucky .....
I am so sorry I haven't been in for a while. I'm am crushed to come in and find so much horrible, cruel, heartbreaking news. I'm crying so much right now, none of us deserve this......
BecD - I am so very sorry. I have no words that will help but my heart is crying for you. Sending you much love and hoping you can find the strength (and resources) to keep going.
Loula, I completely understand your negativity, don't apologise for it. you have been through more than many could stand and you're still here, fighting and trying. You will be rewarded one day and I'm hoping that is very soon. Thinking of you and hoping you get some answers that lead to appropriate treatment and success.
Hollybolly - best of luck for your current cycle. i hope the cycle goes as smoothly and painlessly as possible.
WLB - I'm excited for you! Happy stabbing! Wishing you all the best for a BFP this time. Your turn now ok - and that is an order! I can't stand those mags, so sick of hearing about these "celebs" doing IVF once and falling pregnant - no worries. Makes the rest of the world think IVF is a process that always works Also hate hearing them go on about how difficult it was. I'm sure it's not the celebs fault - probably more the journo's and what they include but they are not helping us 'infertiles' by giving a warped view of what IVF is like.
Hello to M2C, Dutchie, bluiej, dusty and bridget. Hope you are all doing ok. you ladies have given amazing support to others that last few weeks, you are all very very special. Hello to everyone else, hope you are doing ok.
Nothing from me still, been having a hard time lately (aren't we all), last week it was a year since I found out I was pregnant for the first time ever, I don't know where this year went??, it has been very hard to deal with being even further away from a BFP than ever - one year on, no baby, no pregnancy. I feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare. Will be trying again soon though, just building strength and trying to move forward emotionally a bit first.
hi me again, just wanted to come in an add that I just called and made an appointment with my FS to discuss Round 2 and what we are going to do this time. I have no idea where will will be going from here. Appointment is tomorrow, I'm interested to hear what he suggests. Will let you know what he says and when we 'might' be jumping back on the rollercoaster. I hate rollercoasters
I am sending you a huge virtual hug, you have gone through so much and I am so sorry you are dealing with this xx
Also hate hearing them go on about how difficult it was. I'm sure it's not the celebs fault - probably more the journo's and what they include but they are not helping us 'infertiles' by giving a warped view of what IVF is like.
), last week it was a year since I found out I was pregnant for the first time ever, I don't know where this year went??, it has been very hard to deal with being even further away from a BFP than ever - one year on, no baby, no pregnancy. I feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare. Will be trying again soon though, just building strength and trying to move forward emotionally a bit first.
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