fatgirlslim: i know how you're feeling. we've had a break of 18 months and about to do ICSI cycle # 2. it's a bit scary. i don't have the meds yet as i need to see whats happening for next month with my cycles first. good luck to you.
Hi Ladies
I think I might join you if that's ok. Ive seen most of you around in other forums I think and I think ive now been doing Assisted Conception for long enough to be able to come in here.
Looks like we are currently going through another failed IVF/ICSI round. Im 11DPO now, have small amount of blood, AF type headaches and a temp of 35.9 only - so I think safe to say its over and Im not sure where we will be heading next. Maybe I need a bit of encouragement to try another IVF because right now Im feeling as though I just wanna give up a bit. Sorry to come in here and vent straight away.
I hope some of you ladies have had success.
Loula Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful little boy
Hi Girls,
Just popping in to say Hi. Welcome Loops12, get it all out girl.
Congratulation to Loula!!!!! Yeahhhhhh.
AFM: Am philisophical today. Probably spelt that wrong! And want to get a few things down. Bit serious!
Anyway, have had last transfer ever last week. Not hopeful, but who knows really.
Decided earlier in the year that Jan was my last stim cycle. Had 8 froz left and decided after last trf last month that I couldn't stand it any more.
Am 43 and want to start feeling like a young 43 instead of a very old 43. Have gorgeous daughter, so apprecitate her now.
This is one last hurrah, thawed all 8, lost 4 in thaw (that never happened before, one of the reasons has been hard to give up was that I always got good egg numbers and lost very few - too good, OHSS 4 times). 4 grew on to blasts. 2 in, 2 in bin.
I found keeping the basal body temperature chart very good, only discovered that this year after 3.5 years IVF from my chinese doc, gave a sense of control/ certainty.
Found chinese yukky herbs very good, made me feel stronger and regulated my progesterone, could see it clearly in the temp charts when we got it right.
Went to the IVF councellor, very good to just get it all out. Went to the Carers councellor the same week, was getting so depressed, as my Dad slowly disappearing with alzheimers.
Very good booklet about loss, realised that I am also part carer for deaf husband. Loss of how you expected your life to be and dealing with ongoing loss of his hearing. And of course loss of the many children I wanted. And we lost most of our business and lifestyle this year. Tough year actually.
So I have already finished the self inflicted flagelation of IVF. Good. Get my head around that. I've grieved so many times that once the result is known I'll either be ecstatic or just relieved. Blood test next Mon.
Trying to keep my head on until then. Maybe in 6 months will be able to see what I learned from the process. It all works out inthe end, if it's not workign out, its not the end!
Hi Samandpoppy ~ thanks very much for the welcome and understanding of my venting.
Im very sorry to hear about what you have been through - a very tough road and I fully understand and can appreciate when you say this will be your last because you want your life back. This does take over our lives and I feel a bit the same way. I think we'll only try IVF a couple more times as it is just way too stressful and emotional and hard on our relationship.
Sorry to hear about your DH's hearing and about your dad. I too know about loss as I lost my sister in 2004 to a car accident - she was only 18. So with IVF disappointment on top of that times get very hard. Also all of my IVF cycles now Ive never had any frozen so its always another full stim cycle for us
Big hugs and I will be crossing fingers tight for you. Will be thinking of you Mon and Good luck
Hi all, sorry for the long absence, just easier to stick my head in the sand really.
Have booked in to have ovarian drilling done feb 14 next year with my FS. Our last cycle was cancelled (second in a row) due to erratic hormone levels and very few follicles - the complete opposite of the previous cycle.
I've had enough and right now I dont want to do any further treatment, my doctor agrees and wont treat me unless i do the ovarian drilling anyway.
We are pursuing local adoption in WA, and also hoping to pursue donor embryos from people who have completed their families through ivf. Its a long shot, but we are at our wits end with ivf, there isnt much more we can do if i cant even get to egg collection anymore.
Life is too short. My cousin was killed in an accident last week, and I dont want to spend the next 5-10 years of my life doing something that makes me unhappy. I need to get myself back together again.
Geez BecD you've had such a rough trot as well ~ (((GBH))). Im so sorry to hear of your TTC/IVF struggles and stress and also about your cousin. So sad and tragic. I so hear you about getting your life backtogether again and not wanting to go through all the unhappy times. Will be thinking of you and all the best with the adoption etc. Deepest condolences for the loss of your cousin
Hi ladies, I have been blogging, but havent been on the forums for quite a while.
Just wanted to send you my best....
Becd and samandpoppy, i am hoping for positive outcomes foryou. You are right, life is short, and sometimes we need to make sure we are enjoying the here and now.
I have started another cycle...injecting now, expect egg collection sometime next week. Detached at the moment...but a xmas surprise would be wonderful
Hi Possums,
Good Luck! I hope it works perfectly for you, and for everyone else.
AFM: Sadly my last ever IVF transfer resulted in another biochemical. Thanks for all your good wishes. I am still very sad, but have to step up and deal with it as last week our business went into receivership.
Looks like we will have to sell the house. We have another business that will probably work, but no income for the next 6 months at least. We are starting to work through what we need to do. Must say having done the Landmark Forum really helps when dealing with this stuff. Got a lot of support last night when I was at a seminar there, and can pick up and dust myself off and create something new to wish for.
So sorry to hear that your final IVF cycle was not successful. I would love to hear how you move on from this as I am about to start my last IVF cycle (egg pickup is on Monday) and I'm so scared about how I will cope and move on with my life if it doesn't work.
I have an almost 14 year old daughter who I concieved naturally (and by accident) when I was 22. I always wanted to give her a sibling but as a single woman I didn't think I could do it, until 4 years ago I started this process with a long and exhaustive donor search and then a year of donor insemination before moving onto IVF early this year. This will be my last attempt as the money has run out (well I have borrowed the maximum I can borrow... now have to work out how to pay it back).
I had one chemical pregnancy on my 1st cycle but BFN on my next 2. This will be my 4th. :-(
I'm sorry to hear about your business failing as well. It must be extra hard when you have invested so much into paying for IVF and then with your business going belly up you might lose your house... I really feel for you. I hope your new business is a success.
Hi Ladies.
I've not been on here for a long time and not many people i recognise except for you loops12!
Hi keep strong loops never give up
I've been hiding away for to long now after my little boy was stillborn with my first cycle, so thought i would check in here as really helped last time!
I've had FET with 2 blasto on the 2nd has anybody got expierience with frozen blasto? my doc says they have not done enough to get any stats.
Hi Ladies
Possums ~ thank you. All the best with this cycle, will for you!
Samandpoppy ~ Very sorry things didnt work out and also about your business - must be very hard. Stay strong and I hope good things come to you in the future. None of us deserve this crap. Hugs
Lori ~ very sad to hear of your troubles, I will be and you get your little miracle. I hear ya on the money situation, we've had all sorts of money troubles and its just so unfair that its so expensive and that we have to spend this money. I hope it pays off for you hon. Goodluck
Williamsemma ~ Oh so sorry to hear about Thomas, can't comprehend how hard that must have been (((GBH))). I wish you all the very best for another little miracle and an earth brother or sister for your angel. I would think because blasties are supposed to be the best quality that if it thaws ok, it would probably be pretty great. FX'd its a real sticky lil bub! Thank you - I wont give up - at least not for a while yet xo
AFM ~ Had FS appointment last week and we are having a few bloods for different things and probably another IVF/ICSI attempt in May if we can get the funds.
Hi to everyone and I hope you are all well, despite all the TTC challenges
I want to echo what Loops said and wish you the best of luck Williamsemma with your blastocysts. Since they are meant to be the best quality hopefully you will have more luck. I'm so sorry to hear about your still born baby. I sometimes wonder if that's why I have never fallen pregnant (apart from a chemical pregnancy) with IVF... because when I pray for it to work I pray to have a healthy baby born (and I guess that I'm asking for too much) but I don't know how I could cope if I had a miscarriage or still birth or have a child born so fragile that it only lived a few days etc.
Do the doctors have any idea why he was still born or what they might be able to do in future to reduce your chance of going through that again? I can't imagine how painful that would be.
One of my friends had her son (through IVF) 13 and a half weeks prem. It was very touch and go for pretty much the first 12 weeks... everytime it looked like he was improving and going to be okay they would have some sort of set back (lung problems, infections etc). He's now doing really well and is almost 4 months past his due date and almost sitting up. She virtually lived at the hospital for most of the 14 weeks that he was in there and I think she was amazingly strong. I don't know how I would manage to hold it together like that.
Anyway Loops... I noticed in your sign off that your hubby has low sperm count problems... my friend above had the same problem and they found that after 6 months of being on menivite (the male version of elivate) his sperm count increased 10 fold. Not sure if you have tried it? They still had to do ICSI as they ended up with only 2 viable sperm by the time his sample got to the lab. But as they say it only takes one. My friend had 2 eggs picked up so they did ICSI on both but only 1 developed and that ended up being her son.
My egg pick up went okay today. I got 13 eggs and don't feel too sore. Now we just have to see how many embryos I get and how many make it to Blastocyst. Fingers crossed.
Lori
37yrs with daughter who turns 14 in 2 weeks time.
Started donor search Dec 06, Started donor insemination Jan 09, Started IVF FEb 10. 1st cycle - chem preg, 2nd cycle BFN, FT - BFN, currently on 3rd full cycle.
samandpoppy- reallysorry to hear you didnt have success with your cycle, and the news about your business. You sound really strong and hope you all come through this ok and find a fresh start
dreamrise- best of luck with those eggs! here's hoping lots of embryos for you
williamsemma- good luck! i had a pregnancy from a frozen blast, so i think they can be pretty strong! (that pregnancy didnt last for other medical reasons)
loops, hope you are doing well
and hi to anyone i have missed!
afm, currently in the tww, with a blastocyst on board, and one in the freezer after this cycle. BT is dec 23rd, so either great xmas news or a bit of a bummer in the festive season...here's hoping for good news! I'm starting to get pretty nervous now
Good luck Possum with the blastocyst and one in the freezer is great news too. I've never managed to get any blastocysts. Had transfers on day 2 and on one cycle I got 2 embryos frozen at day 2 because they didnt' think they would make it to blastocyst. None of them have taken.
Anyway I have my blood test on the 22nd Dec so like you it will either be a great Christmas present or make for a very depressing Christmas.
Hopefully we will both get great Christmas presents.
I'm a bit worried as today I had the farrier out to do my 6 horses and ponies feet. My one year old miniature pony got a little crazy when the farrier went to trim her back foot and she rammed straight into my stomach. It still feels a little tender now. I hope that I don't find out that I was pregnant but lost it (chemical pregnancy) due to that stupid pony. I was so upset with her. In hindsight I guess I should have tried to see if one of the neighbours could have helped or something though you don't expect anything like that to happen.
sorry i havn't been here in a while. i've been having a lot of stress lately so doing another cycle has just been put off.
i hope we have some more good news in here soon.
i don't know whats happening or when or if ever.
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Yeahhhhhh.
Good luck
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