Keen- honey big hugs to you. The rollercoaster sucks doesnt it. Please take care of your heart.
Tam- thank you for your kind words. I feel exactly the same. I am so grateful to all you girls. It does help knowing you are all just a keyboard away.

As life is such a rollercoaster, I really am just taking it day and week at a time. There are days I feel so ok. And like you Keen think maybe I will be ok being just a couple. But then the next day I am a a mess and cant cope with the thought. Depending on my "mood" of the day, to weather I attend any parties ect. Most of the time I do come home and feel not so good after hearing the 4 hour talk on babies and kids, but I also dont think shutting myself away from everyone healthy long term either. I am just looking for a healthy balance!

Oh Jules- Bugger on the more needles. when is your next scan? I think it is good that you are taking some time off work. Less things to worry about sounds good. Just make sure you get some rest!

Hope everyone else is doing ok.