Speaking of down in the dumps, I have been feeling very average as of late too, must be going around....I am back to having tearymoments and the silly old "why us"... back to cursing woman in my head that are pregnant or have kids/babies, back to the old 'oh for God sake go and have your tubes tied' when i see a mother with 4 young kids and she is yelling at them......
I think sometimes i try to hard at being strong and it all builds and builds and builds and then BANG it all falls apart...
I haven't told DH this but the other day in Bondi Junction when i was having an appointment with the surgeon, i fully lost the plot and locked myself in a toilet cubical at Westfields.... i was in such a state, i didn't know what to do, i nearly didn't turn up for the appointment... BUT i pulled myself together and manage to get through... i was so stressed by the time i got to my bestfriends house at Gosford where i was staying the night, I bludged 2 of her cigarettes off her :shock: .......... 8-[ i haven't smoked a ciggie in about 3 years.... work that out.....
Sorry about the little vent, probably should of posted it under vent but, i didn't think it was going to be such a big vent.....
Hi to everyone....
love leis xx
thanks suzieq
). We cant hold it together all the time and its really not fair of us to expect that we can (although I know we all do a damn good job most of the time). Sometimes for your own sanity and because sometimes you just cant help it because something just pushes you "over the edge" you just have to let yourself feel all the stuff that is happening to us and feel the loss and anger and frustration and hurt that we have.
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