concentrating is the hardest bit - lots of emotions running through your head, and you're trying to focus on the mundane every day aspects of your job - you can distract yourself for a few minutes, but as soon as things get slow/quiet - BANG, it rushes back! i hop your shift flies past so that it's not too long before you get to wake your hubby really soon (though avoid the heart attack thing - he's only good for hugs if his ticker is still working!)

as for why you can spill your guts on here - yeah, we all know what you're going through, we all support each other without judgement - and sometimes the anonymity helps a lot - for what it's worth, you could be typing your thoughts for your own benefit alone for all the impact it has on you everyday - but the benefit is you get supporting response from us!!

take care hun