By some crazy miracle i got my period a week early - on the 31st December... I was straight on the phone to the FS and was able to start my Gonal-F injections that night and come under 2009 Medicare safety-net rules.

I was so, so happy and excited - normally I am like clockwork and there was not a hope in hell of us being able to start a cycle in 2009...

Anyway... everything was going smoothly and happily... feeling all loved-up and excited... UNTIL

My husband told me that he told his mother.

HE TOLD HIS MUM.

I know I should be happy that he was so excited he needed to tell his mum...

But I am totally, totally, totally p****d off.

I feel so.... 'robbed'... because of his poor morphology... I will never experience the 'surprise' and the thrill of falling pregnant... I will never miss my period, buy a test and run out of the toilet waving around my BFP...

That will never happen. And I have somehow grown to accept that.

What I can't however, accept - is that now... I will also not get the chance of having my IVF be private... never have the chance of surprising our family with the BFP... and god forbid it doesn't work... we'll now have to have that conversation aswell.

I am hysterical right now... am I overreacting?

L x