Hi Arimeh
Gosh...sounds like you've had a heavy morning! My thoughts...from the journey we've been through...maybe you just need to let her go? I've been through times when we've decided to give up and I haven't been able to put my self in any situation that involved 'happy families'...something I was grieving for...grief is so different for everyone and even though I know no one was intentionally 'rubbing my nose in it' it 'felt' like the universe sure was! The friends that I've been able to turn to when I've come out of this place (been there many times!) were those that acknowledged that they had heard why I needed my space and left the door open for me. There's always so much more to a story...maybe she really wants to try IVF but here partner won't? What ever is going on for her I can assure you it is all consuming ...not only are you faced with the reality you may never have a family...no one ever treats you 'normally' again...relationships are changed and that is just another issue that made me 'angry'... as it's just one more thing to deal with...hence why hiding under the ROCK every now and again is all you can do to cope? Hope that makes sense? I really think all you can do is forgive her...love her...and let her go...she'll come back when she's ready? And how lovely of you to be taking the time to reflect on this....so many people don't...really compassionate