Oh Mel hun I'm so sorry...it's just not fair! and don't even think about what other people have been through..this is about YOU and what you are going through in this moment...it sucks and its' heart breaking...every 'blow' chips away at your hope...your chance to have your precious baby in your arms...you have every right to be upset...cry, yell, scream...do what YOU need to do...know that we all feel your pain and wish that we could change this for you...it's not fair and some days are just too hard...hang in there...they haven't cancelled yet...I'm still hoping for 'the one' that you need...it only takes one...thinking of you xxx