So deeply, deeply sorry to hear your news. I NEVER seems fair, as we all know. I also feel for you that DH is going away, but positively, it may give you time to cry those tears out. A week off is a good thing!! Try to keep busy if you're feeling up to it. My thoughts & heart goes out to you both.
I hear CoQ10 is workable but not proven on . You really should get some advice before taking it though. I know you both can take it. I hear it is absolutely fantastic for the immune system & regenerating cells (so this is a really good thing) and this is proven. I know a few people who take this daily. One lady is 63 & just came back from trekking mountains in Vietnam, she's amazing and CoQ10 is all she takes. It must be good. I hear another is Goji juice. It does the same thing but I dont know anyone on it. Zinc is an old time favourite for the guys.
Thanks for your kind words and thoughts. I am still feeling quite down and have spent the afternoon reading the newspaper (we are house hunting!) and doing lots of puzzles - sudoko, crosswords etc. - to keep my mind off of reality for a while But I can't avoid it too long as I will be on the phone to my FS first thing tomorrow morning to sort out an appointment ASAP for the next cycle! I have to jump back on that horse now! And I have been a slacker and not done any exercise since for the last 3 days so back into my routine - the more into the healthy weight range the better (I am only about 2kgs above it at the moment, but it gives me something else to focus on!). And I have contacted my acupuncturist who also does chinese herbs - she spoke about COQ10 when I first visited with her so I am hoping that she will be able to recommend a treatment plan for DF. But my DF tells me I got it wrong - it is not motility he has the problem with but morphology and the zona binding (which is why we did ICSI) so I am not sure if that makes a difference supplement wise!
Anyway, will talk to you all again soon.
Cheryl xxx
Best of luck for everything to go text book smooth for you Jo over the next few days - we need to hear of someone having their treatment go well for once - we seem to have fallen in a bit of a rut after the rush of BFP's a few weeks back!!!
Sorry for the lack of personals of late...I'm spending time over in the 'Waiting for AF after mc & loss' threads...but I am keeping an eye on you all!
I agree BW...lets hope things pick up!
Jo...will be thinking of you this week...best of luck hun...sticky sticky vibes for you xxx
Me...start the new job tomorrow...then FS on Wednesday...I'm a bit scared about what the D&C tests will show and AF still hasn't shown up...so what's the bet she arrives tomorrow morning!It could all happen this week and then we'd only be 4 weeks from FET...YIPPEE!!!
Haven't been on today like I was hoping to - I decidied to clean my house before everyone gets here next weekend... and also while my two men weren't here! (Luke is at Dads and DH was at work!)
Have only just sat down, but will have to pop back in later for longer!
Just wanted to send my hugs and thoughts to you Chez xxx
There is just nothing anyone can say that can make you feel any better right now.. The only thing I can offer is that the first cycle is known for just being horrible xxx
My first cycle was written off, too, and the height of devastation is just too hard to put into words. I can offer that it does get better, and the best medicine for it is to start looking forward to your next cycle... and finding out what you can do extra for next time - There is always something new to try xxx
Tracey mentioned Goji juice - Dh and I have been taking a similar juice - Xango for the past few months to help just our overall wellbeing, and for me all things TTC.
It does help with the mans side of things if there is any issues with sperm, and I can honestly say we both feel amazing drinking it.
We get a box of 4 bottles delivered approx once a month ($140) - and this lasts both DH & I about a month. If you were to buy it by the bottle I think its about $60???
Everything starts to add up, but the things this stuff helps is truly amazing.
If you email me your address, I can send you a cd about it - Its a doctor in the US talking about all of the things it can help aid.
When DH brought home the cd, I must admit it took me a while before I actually put it in & listened to it, but once I did, let me tell you, its pretty impressive stuff.
One of his clients also takes it and gave us a bottle to sample.. we
bought a box as soon as we had drunk the bottle he gave us!
Jo - Yay, you're almost there!!! How did your trigger go??Not too painful I hope xxx
I have everything crossed for you xxx
Me - Lou is right, I'm in my 2ww with Antonia, only the first one, though so no high expectations... although I will say my boobs are killing me (and getting more prominent with pain everyday) and I'm feeling soooooo tired, so quietly feeling a little extra hopeful
Time will tell!
Hi to everyone else, and will pop back in later after my shows!!!
i havent dropped off the planet my life has just been toooo hectic!
Ellie - Fab news about your new job and boss. best of luck for tomorrow hun!
Chez - so sorry hun about your whole predicament. i truly hope your FS will have some info for you....
Kotare - sounds promising, bring on thursday
BW - how are you going, do you still pop in here? and isnt your scan tomorrow?
ME - DH back from thailand with pressies for me!!!! he ended up in hospital two nights after getting back. we thought he was having a heart attack! it ended up being 'economy class syndrome' being cramped up at the back of the plane for 6 hours caused clots in his lungs. after gaining a few more grey hairs from worry (me) he had antibiotics for a week and is now back to normal... so our flight to thailand in november has been upgraded to business class (sooo excited!) which means extra luggage allowance for more shopping, which means MORE handbags and shoes!!!!
had my day 12 BT yesterday for FET. levels were 680 and had to go back again today and levels are now 750. so i have to go for BT for the next few days. getting up at 6 to beat the traffic is already taking its toll. i have a hour and a half round trip..... oh well the end picture will be worth it... i think my levels have to be over 1000 before the LH surge and ovulation.... does anyone know?
Yep, Sonya, I'm still keeping an eye on everyone. You're all very much in my thoughts, and I still can't believe how incredibly fortunate I am, and it utterly breaks my heart when there's bad news in here. I'm still praying for everyone, and still sending as much positive energy as I can. I think I need to redouble my efforts! It's nice of you to remember - my scan is tomorrow and I'm incredibly nervous! I'm very glad to hear that your DH is ok after that nasty scare! I'm afraid I never asked about the numbers with my FET - I just turned up when they told me to and did what they said - it made a change to my number obsession with the stim cycle! The 5am starts for blood tests are a distant memory already... not something I will miss at all! There's been some amazing success with FETs lately, so I hope you can follow along with great news very quickly.
Holly - sounds like everything is very promising there!
Ellie - best of luck for the new job (not that I think you'll need it, it sounds brilliant!) and the FS appointment. It will be great to have answers soon.
Cheryl, still thinking of you :hugs:. I wish I had a magic wand to wave for you all to fix everything. Hopefully your FS will have learnt from the way your body has responded this time and will have a more effective plan of attack for next time. I know that's not a lot of comfort to you right now, though.
I just wanted to drop in quickly to say I may be MIA for a while. I am also not sure if our current IVF cycle will continue. Yesterday I had to call an ambulance to take DH to hospital. He has a stoma (from an op to remove his colon 2 years ago). Yesterday it develope a blockage and emergency surgery today revealed that his small bowel was strangulated and they had to remove a section of it and create a new stoma. He is currently in ICU. I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I am continuing with the pill as it is still early on in the cycle, so I am not going to make a decision on that soon. It just reminds me that DH is the most important person in the world to me, and I don't want to have a baby if he isn't going to be well enough, or even be here at all to share it with me. So much to think about. There were moments in the last 24 hours where I actually doubted he would survive. It has certainly put things in perspective.
OMG- Megan - i'm so sorry to hear your hubby is so unwell! i completely understand your need to take time out - from BB and from TTC in general - you're completely right - your DH is the most important part of your life right now. i hope he makes a speedy recovery and that yesterday is the worst of this. my thoughts are with you and your DH at this time Megan - take care
Megan, I really don't know what to say! I'm really sorry to hear this news, and I'll be wishing your DH the speediest and most thorough recovery possible. I'm sorry you have to deal with this on top of your cycle. I hope you can make a decision you are comfortable with. :hugs:
Oh Megan, you have had a really crazy time of it. I hope like mad that your DH makes a speedy recovery from this, although i understand that this is pretty serious stuff. You'll be in my thoughts.
You are right BG, things seems to come in waves of good and not so good news around here. I hope you and Holly can start a resurgence of happy news.
Sonya - good to hear from you - I hope your DH is on the improve now too. Never had a FET so i can't help you...hopefully someone else has some info for you.
Trigger went fine - i make DH do that one - it's psychological, but the needle is a bit scarey! He hates it but he does a good job!
Chez- I am so sorry hun.... words will not change things but i am praying for you xoxox
Megan- How scary, i hope hubby recovers soon !!!!
Well i am day 5 of cycle today so hopefully will ovulate before i go away so we can get another natural cycle in before ivf ( just in case a miracle wants to come our way)
Thanks for the wished Loula ( sorry if i spelt it wrong)
Best of luck to everyone xoxo
Cheryl,
Babe, i am so sorry. I know what that is like to be typing through the tears. I wish i was there with you to give you a big hug. I know nothing can take the pain away but we are here for you beautiful girl. Being by yourself is difficult, We won't let you go through this alone, so anything we can do for you just ask. Your dreams will come true and Rols is right, now you can prepare yourself because so many woman have a bad 1st cycle and success ont he second.
You are a strong woman and you will get through this but others are right, it is important to grieve.
Hey, have not had a great morning either, AF came to town 2 days late after getting my hopes up. I can't help but look aver everything and think, what the hell am i doing wrong. I don't deserve this!! So a hot water bottle and a few naprogesics (which i hate taking but i am rebeling this month and need a break) and i have been watching the Diana Concert. God that woman was and remains amazing. If you can watch it, do, it is a great show. I wish one day i can touch lives in a fraction of the way she has. So much love and peace....and every now and then a update on the terrorist attemps in the last couple of days. God it makes me mad and make my problems small in the scheme of things. But it is fine for us to have moments of self absorbtion sometimes i think. This sort of thing makes me cry, i know i am a bit of a sap, but i love music and how it can bring the world together. I wish more of this sort of thing can happen.
So not a good day but i am handling it well so far. The next few days are the hardest i think, so will be looking for a pick up soon i think.
Sparkles, if you are needing a floor to sleep on, contact me, although we are going to be 1/2 hour out of london in a 1 bed flat, it might help you in this expensive little country. Hope your trip goes well. Our house is always open to fellow aussies. My hubby is 1/2 Italian and we lived there for 6 months 8 years ago, in the north in a little town called Albenga. Love it and you will to. If you are goin to the Cinque Terre and are looking for somewhere to stay, let me know and i can point in the right direction. An amazing country to follow your spirit and lose your inabitions! Have a ball. Not a Slug and Lettuce in sight!!!
BG, Painting, sounds fun and a good distraction. Have fun.
Nic, Good luck and my fingers are crossed for you.
Kotare, all the best for trigger. Keep us intouch.
Loula, Yes, we are starting the IVF journey over here and don't have all the info yet. As soon as i have facts and not just what people have told me i will let you know. We are about to move to Brentwood in Essex and there is a Fertility clinic there. So when we move and have gone through registering again, you know how it is. We will go in and get started. My fingers are crossed that we are covered for our first cycle as we are skint. However i am aware it is not always plain sailing. We wanted to go to the Homeopathic Hospital as they have a womans clinic and treat endo etc however teh PCT where we live won't fund us on NHS. I have appealed with no luck. So although they offer free NHS treatment, it is not always to everyone, everywhere. My fingers are crossed and i amd staying optimistic. I am sure we will get a lucky break and hopefully a successful and comfortable treatment. I am quite nervous to be honest. I get very anxious easily these days have not been coping well with the heart ache.
We are in line for some good luck.
Everyone, hubby and I are holding your hand the whole way. You are not alone.
Cheryl,
I forgot to say that we take Maca, a peruvian root in capsule form athat really helps for reproductive systems both man and woman, libido, hormone balance and quality of cells and NDC Zeolite Drops from Waiora which help cleanse on a cellular level ( this stuff has been amazing). If you need to find more info on either of these, let me know and i can email you links. I know how much of a nightmare internet research can be. Co enzyme, Q10 i have also read to be the ants pants.
Megan, i am sorry sorry to hear of your troubles, i hope the worst is over too. My htoughts are with you.
Sonya, OUr wishes to you and your hubby, Pressie are nice and hubbies are everything. We are lucky to have our wonderful men. At the end of the day my man is the most important thing to me too. It certainly puts it all into perspective.
Kotare, great news on the trigger. Fingers crossed for you.
Ellie, good luck for first day.
Butterfly W, good luck for Scan, don't be worried, be brave. We are thinking of you.
Man there are a lot of you today that i want o say hi to. Sorry about my long messages. I am so sorry if i have missed anyone.
Megan, obviously you've had some rough weather to endure. All the best to you and DH. I reckon your decision to continue with the pill for now can't hurt. Then you can reassess later based on your combined mental state and DH's health.
Sorry, havent been around lately either but have been reading the posts. Just havent had the heart. We had our FET. So anxious the embryo wouldnt make it to thaw. It did. Period arrived four days early on Sun morning. Devastated. Dont know where we are supposed to go now. Donor...?? I had dreams about little babies last night, DH asked if he was in them, i said no . Oh it just hurts.
. You really should get some advice before taking it though. I know you both can take it. I hear it is absolutely fantastic for the immune system & regenerating cells (so this is a really good thing) and this is proven. I know a few people who take this daily. One lady is 63 & just came back from trekking mountains in Vietnam, she's amazing and CoQ10 is all she takes. It must be good. I hear another is Goji juice. It does the same thing but I dont know anyone on it. Zinc is an old time favourite for the guys.
But I can't avoid it too long as I will be on the phone to my FS first thing tomorrow morning to sort out an appointment ASAP for the next cycle! I have to jump back on that horse now! And I have been a slacker and not done any exercise since for the last 3 days so back into my routine - the more into the healthy weight range the better (I am only about 2kgs above it at the moment, but it gives me something else to focus on!). And I have contacted my acupuncturist who also does chinese herbs - she spoke about COQ10 when I first visited with her so I am hoping that she will be able to recommend a treatment plan for DF. But my DF tells me I got it wrong - it is not motility he has the problem with but morphology and the zona binding (which is why we did ICSI) so I am not sure if that makes a difference supplement wise!
. I hope the eggies are good ones this time. I guess i'll find out on Thursday. 
I know nothing can take the pain away but we are here for you beautiful girl. Being by yourself is difficult, We won't let you go through this alone, so anything we can do for you just ask. Your dreams will come true and Rols is right, now you can prepare yourself because so many woman have a bad 1st cycle and success ont he second. 
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