HI everyone,

Don't want to bring everyone down, but just feeling a bit upset. My younger sister who wasn't even trying to get pregnant is now 12 weeks along and has been for scans today. She has just sent me a text saying that they have heaps of photos and even one in 4d. Am I a bad person for wanting to cry instead of feeling happy for her? Is it wrong to feel so jealous?? I am having difficulty thinking about seeing the photos, I even have difficulty hearing her refer to "her baby" and not to mention the fact that they are now at the stage that they are going to tell everyone. That means I will have to cope with all those questions "So when are you going to have a baby?" I feel so selfish and mean.

Tomorrow is our first appointment in preparation for the move from OI to IVF, but as I am doing a down regulation cycle (21 days on pill starting on day 5) and will be waiting around 10 days for AF to arrive this cycle, it is going to be around 36 days before everything is really starting. It seems like such a long time to wait. I really am just feeling so down today.

Janie x