It is incredibly hard Possums. I don't think that you can describe to others just how hard this is, which is where I think the strain in friendships come in. We have lost friends (our very best friends) and gained friends throughout our TTC journey. In hindsight, I wish that things had been different with our best friends - they were totally insensitive to what we were going through but we were also super sensitive to the way they were, which actually wasn't all that bad but we perceived it to be unsupportive. I just remind myself now that people act a lot more unconsciously than we think they do.

I agree with Lily Dust, there are things that I avoided and missed out on because it was too painful for me - but now regret that. But we can't go back and change that. What we can change is what happens tomorrow and the next day.

I'm still not the same person I was, I'm still quite bitter about things (still get that rage of envy when I hear about people falling pregnant naturally). I think that there is a huge part of LTTTC that stays with us and scars us to a point.

I'm rambling now, but just wanted you to know you're not alone in these feelings.
Sue