Just came here to give you an update but first:
Sunbeam - What you need right now is a real life hug, as Alice said. It is OK to feel hopeless and sad sometimes, especially with all you have been through. You have mentioned before trying somebody else as a Donor Daddy, do you think it may be worth a try? You did have all those beautiful eggs... I hope your cruise is somewhere sunny, so it will lift your mood.

AFM - coming back here. I started spotting on Wednesday, and last night I think the miscarriage completed. I went for BT yesterday, but I just do not see how it would not be a mc with all the blood. It pretty much feels like a normal period, maybe a bit more of the thick red blood (sorry for TMI). Right now, I think I want to try again, but I always long for another pregnancy immediately after mc. Right before this BFP I was coming to terms with the fact that we may never have another child and it did not sound so bad to me at all, so perhaps in a few weeks I will change my mind. But for now, I will hang around here, because you are a great group of ladies and you understand.

BTW, when people ask me "so when is another one coming", will it be rude if I tell them "probably never, I had 2 mc since the first one was born". I mean, c'mon people, I am 43, another child is not just a matter of planning and putting the condom away for me. And my reproductive plans are not any of your business. And I do not see any shame in mc, so I am not planning to keep it secret like some awful thing I did. I am not planning to volunteer this information, but since they are asking... Do you think it is in a bad taste on my part?