Hi girls. I know how you feel. I have been missing in action from this thread for a few months to get my head together, and last week turned 40. I agree, it seems like do not pass the maternity ward, do not collect a baby!! Have been following you all and wish you love, support and some freakin miracles - not too much to ask.

Meg-i would definitely follow up, that just doesnt sound right to me - agree it should cost something, but not the whole amount!!!

Hi saffy - iam good. Very upset after the last BFN - AF arrived 4 days after blasty transfer which to me just doesnt seem right. Had appt with FS yesterday, and he said that was quick, but just means it was never going to happen. He said it was a grade c blasty (which is the first i heard about it) and when i got preggers it was grade b. Glad they tell you this **** after the fact.

Anyway, in the past he has always been totally anti transferring more than one blasty, but this time he was open to it, which i suspect has something to do with my age, although he did say if they were grade a or b blastys they should only transfer one andfreeze the rest.

Hi loops and n2loose. I know we are all going to get there soon - as i said to FS yesterday, i know its a marathon and not a sprint, but sometimes i just wish it wasnt so trying both physically and emotinally.

So anyway, here's to us older gals getting knocked up. Hi to everyone that i have missed. AFM, starting next stim cycle in about 2 weeks when AF arrives, and trying (lots!!) for a natural miracle this month (ha ha even as i am typing it i hear laughing in my head). And if one more person says to me "oh lots of people have a baby naturally after having their firat by IVF" i will snot them!

Bless.