Hi ladies

Hope you're all well! Just need to vent before my brain implodes...

I went to the drs for a diagnostic ultrasound on Saturday morning (which much to my shock included an internal which I was NOT prepared for in the slightest!) The woman was like "It's really recommended" so I went ahead but the whole I time I was staring at the ceiling thinking "Please don't judge me! Please don't judge me!" lol silly I know but I'm generally more...well kept!

The woman who was doing the ultrasound made all the noises I hate most in the world..."Ahhh...hmmm...mmmm....hmmm...huh....ahhh. ...and you haven't had a m/c....hmmmm...." which made me think bad things...followed by her comment "You better come pick these up in a couple of hours" ****!!!! I spent the next 1.5hrs pacing around the shops thinking "HOW ON EARTH DOES EVERYONE I WALK PAST TODAY HAVE A BABY!!!"

Finally managed to get in to see my doctor tonight (after waiting 1.5hrs!!) and she told me...my results are NORMAL!! WTF was with the lady at the imaging place?! Geez...

I now have a referal letter to go see a FS on the 19th January who can hopefully tell me what the problem is (my dr still thinks it's endo).

Not sure what to do next...I realised the other day that this month marks 2yrs of TTC...I hope this appt with the FS gives me some answers...I want my baby

Thanks for reading. Know it's nothing major but I always thought that by this time I'd have at least my first bub...and my heart aches when I see others with theirs, women getting pregant by walking past a guy in the street who sneezes (ok it's not logical but neither is my lack of baby!), women aborting because "they're not ready" - and I don't mean this comment generally, I actually know someone who's done this TWICE IN SIX MONTHS! *sigh*

Sorry for the rambling but thanks again for reading my insanity for the day...