TBH..... I think I knew that we all kinda feel that way - but are all too scared to say it, cause we don't want to put a damper on how everyone's excitement (and I am known IRL, for saying what I think.... so.....)


doesn't stop us being deliriously happy for every .... and as N2L has said before, in each of us there's a small part that does recognise that maybe... maybe some of us won't get the illusive BFP..... for me it was hammered home when Gecko got to the 'end' of her TTC journey..... but.... there is always hope.

and that is something worth holding onto - for just a bit longer - for ALL of us..... it's all we've got, right...?


anyway - sorry to be the 'tear jerker' of the week.... I'm actually feeling okay about things ATM, and even told the girls I had dinner with tonight, that I'd been trying for 2 1/2 years, after all, it's not like everyone I know doesn't KNOW I want children.... I'm kinda sick of the secrecy.... I don't want to tell people when every cycle is a failure.... but I think I'd like more people to know, that - we are having trouble - and to be nice to me, and look after me.... cause I need that.

thanks for always being here to listen girls - I value that so much xxx