LT TTC & Assisted Conception Nov-Dec 2010

[SpringLola]

Going to apologize in advance for the me post, but I've had one on my worst days since starting the IVF roller coaster.
Although I know my swear words will be bleeped out, I will also apologize for those too

Day started off normal, went and had scan, felt pretty positive with myself that they had found an extra one...
Had call into the clinic to get some more med's, presuming a Thursday or Friday pick up.
My FS wasn't there so got the guru ****er from hell..been doing it waaaayyy too long I think, forgotten the people attached to results.
Anyway, don't even have the decencey to take me into a consult room, no figure all the woman are there for the same reason (might as well do ****ing internals as a group option too) so presents me with ....we think you should cancel..I was gob smacked, my FS had promised we were running with what ever was there. I asked him to speak to her...for that he went into another room..why the privacy now..moron...comes out to say she agree's..what I don't get a phone call or a room..fighting back tears I ask why is this happening..This is the bit that blew me away...Its because your 39 and the quality of the eggs isn't good..I whisper, but the quality of the eggs has never been tested, I've been cancelled 2 times...well he says thats why you don't get many eggs, I've been doing this a long time and I know..of course who was I to question the guru WTF..I tried to explain to him that I'd already been pg this year...and this one blew me right off my chair I actually had to catch my breath...he says, but it wasn't a viable pg was it because it failed..
I couldn't speak after that, except to say I wont cancel...

I'm know what he is saying is probably true..but just to treated like a human being with feelings would've made the whole experiance a bit easier to take.

So much to their delight *sic* we have egg pick up on Thursday morning. But they made sure they told me that they wouldn't do DH's biopsy until the checked my eggs were viable, save everybodies time.
I think he changed his mind when I said that we were not doing anymore IVF so it s now or never..or he won't get paid.

So sorry for the long winded story book but now I feel better...hope my swear words get bleeped...