Springlola - funnily enough... I was sipping tea - in recovery!!! I lived with my Grandparents for a number of years and spent nearly every holiday with them so do slip into grannyspeak from time to time.

I really hope that you have a successful epu and prove them wrong. You are not being melodramatic, it is natural to have all of these concerns, especially when we have such little control over the situation, but don't forget there is also a large scope for success.
I too am a google queen. I google the cr@p out of just about everything!