LT TTC Two Week Wait #4

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Springlola - I really hope that it swings the other way for you, you are still only 10dpo technically, so very early. Great news re your house. Hopefuly that will get you closer to where you want to be.

Oneday - I'm sorry that your test was neg, but believe me, I have googled and googled and googled today and there are plenty of people who have had very low numbers at this stage. I can relate to feeling like a little piece of you chips off with every bfn. Hang in there lovely, it can still change.
Are you able to do any part time or online courses to help with a change of job or perhaps your current work can train you up on admin side of thing in their office to get some experience and then move on? It's a big decision. I'm 36 and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

Sweetie - Yes, you are still borderline early. I really hope that you get your bfp. We are doing renos also, although am only up to the planning stage and having things have ripped out stage - feels like the story of my life!

Possums - hope your 2ww passes quickly for you.

Trishy - GL for your 2ww, what day transfer did you have?

Saffy - I hope you've had a relaxing weekend and that you are feeling a little better now.

Hi Tima, Aimee, hope you are both OK and that you are both out enjoying your weekends.

AFM - Well I have a confession to make. I caved in yesterday afternoon (6dp5dt) and POAS. It came up with the lightest of lightest lines, HOWEVER.. this morning with fmu...nothing! OK, so, obsessively (because I had one left) I did another this afternoon and it also had a very light line but I have started to spot. So I think something tried to happen, but didn't really take. Also feeling slight AF pain and still no bb tenderness or nausea (these were around at 10dpo last time)
IKWYM about a crappy Christmas. I am dreading it. There are only a few of us at Christmas including my pregnant SIL, who was a month behind me. It is going to be a tough reminder at Christmas. I just want to go away for Christmas but it is impossible.
I do not begrudge anyone a child but have to admit that I am a little jealous of how effortless it is for some and just find it hard to deal with at the moment.

My Inlaws dropped in this morning about an hour after my test, MIL asked me if everything was OK, I said no, the cycle didn't work and and in the next breath she proceeded to start telling me of some random person she knows who is having a baby next week, no 'oh I'm sorry, or that's no good' I interrupted her to say, look, I don't want to hear about all this right now if you don't mind' and walked out of the room. After last time when I lost my pregnancy, same thing happened and she seemed to think it was the perfect time to tell me that my SIL was pregnant.
Sorry for the me rant, but I had to let it out. I will not be telling anyone about any future TTC cycles again and am so thankful that I have you lovely ladies and others out there to talk to about this. (So much hugging in this post - you can tell I am feeling very emotional today!!)