Hi ladies!
Its been quite a while actually since my last post but I needed a big time break from all the IVF craziness especially over christmas and new years

In fact the week before christmas I got a BFP on my own! I just figured that I would wait and see if I got past 5 weeks before doing the big share and well anyone who knows my history probably already knows what happened. In fact the bleeding part didnt and still hasent yet. but I know I am not pregnant. I had a blood test on what would have been 4 weeks 5 days and HCG was only 10 I also had a progesterone done at the same time and it was only 1.9(post menopausal levels). I have had more blood tests and the HCG is -2
I have another blood test tomorrow but this one is testing all my other hormones. They need to get it all sorted and figure out if there is anything wrong before I even consider going for stim cycle #3
meanwhile my SIL is now 8 weeks with 1 baby after her FET(and first transfer) was successful with 20 more little embryos in the freezer. I am so jealous!!! So i have been dealing with that.
Then 5 weeks ago while doing a favour for a friend and babysitting her 10.8kg 20 month old I picked her up and heard a huge cracking noise come from my shoulder. After procrastinating for 3 days I went to a local quack who suggested physiotherapy and while that gave me some movement back last week my shoulder began hurting again more than ever.
I went to my childhood doctor who sent me for X-ray and Ultrasound on friday and found out today I have a full thickness tear in my suprapinatus tendon and I need to have it surgically repaired!
This will likely put a dampener on any IVF treatment I am planning on until I at least know my operation date! It so sucks. I fear my time is really running out as far as TTC goes. I have just hit 9 years 2 months TTC.
2005 seems to have been a doozy with me getting pregnant 6 times 7 times, losing 7 pregnancies, doing 2 fully stimulated IVF cycles and injuring my shoulder on top of all of that. Its about put me over the edge!!!

Hence the break I needed from it all! over the holidays. especially christmas eve when everyone was playing lets see who can talk about SIL's pregnancy the most and the loudest....oh and while we are at it lets do it all in front of Cazz

Didge~ congratulations on your BFP!
Hi to all the ladies I havent met while I have been on a break. I just thought I would come say hi and that I have not dropped off the face of the earth and even though I may not be doing IVF as soon as I would have liked I will still be here cheering you guys on!!!

love to all and Happy 2006
Cazz