I wish I had your realism N2L.
It's so easy to get swept up into the emotions.
TBH- the testing makes me feel a bit more prepared.
I read that test by myself every morning, in my own time, which gives me time to process my feelings.
I stay upbeat for my DH- I don't like anyone to see my emotions IRL.

BFN for me this morning.... I'm resigned to the fact that this cycle hasn't worked and am excited to move on to the next one.