FGS - I kind of agree with your decision actually. I read your post a couple of times. I think the only reason that POAS is so discouraged is because it is all so early for us in IVF land and getting a neg result that may not be correct would get you down and not staying positive for your body.....but then, on the other hand if the neg result is correct then at least you are somewhat prepared. Honey I think you should do whatever you have to do and really we shouldn't let anyone tell us otherwise. If your tests are neg but then get a positive result at BT then what a way to be picked up again hey. But if they are right I was very glad to see you write...."next time" This is my 3rd and I'm sorry to say it doesn't get easier, right now I am having 100 emotions in a day. Convinced that this is the one, then convinced that it hasn't worked just like the others.....but no matter how hard it is and no matter how I can't imagine picking myself up from another disappointment....I can't give up. And obviously neither can you. Don't rule this one out just yet though ok, it's good to be prepared but you have to keep a little bit of hope.
I also wanted to know about your estrogen patch? Obviously estrogen is a problem for me leading up to EPU, and effects my egg numbers, do you think it could also be a reason why my embies don't stick (yet)? My FS has never given me estrogen support and now I'm kind of wondering why??
Sharee - I know what you mean, I just went from having the most awesome day and feeling so positive to bursting into tears. But I guess you hit the nail on the head....we can't do anything to help. I guess we just have to wait. xxx
Hey FGS, I have every intention of poas as well. For me it is too emotionally dangerous to hang everything on one phone call where as if I poas like you have done over a series of days maybe I can gradually accept a negative.
Having said that you are still 4 days out from testing and as cliched as it sounds it may well just be too early - I see keep peeing for the next four days you just may see that second line start to appear!!!!
Can't believe its February already... where does it go?
FGS - I like your POAS theory. Being an addict myself, I agree with bj81 that its noone's decision but your own, do whatever works for you. I also agree with Sharee that it helps me to accept a negative result. I also chart my BBT, and that is just as crushing as a negative POAS when my temp starts dropping! A lot of people don't like POAS, and when you're taking HCG it really is just the drug that you're seeing, but hey, we do crazy things in this crazy 2WW! (I even POAS once when I was full of Pregnyl, just to remember what a positive POAS looked like ) My main justification for POAS is that I'm on a drug that I have to stop taking AS SOON as I find out I'm UTD... that's my excuse, and I'm sticking to it!
BJ81 and Sharee - hope you girls are hanging in there, and feeling OK.
HI to anyone I've missed!
AFM - speaking of POAS... I've done it. Twice! Yesterday I thought I saw the faintest of faint lines (confirmed by DH), but today - zilch. I think the brand of test kit I used yesterday was just a bit dodgy. So I'm naturally a bit crushed. I had a +ve POAS on CD23 when I had my chem preg, so assume that if I was UTD now, it would show up (I'm on CD28). Big *SIGH*
How are you all? Looks like I have a lot to catch up on. Just wanted to wish those of you who are in the mad house all the best and I really hope that you're all doing well. Healthy, relaxed and not too crazy.
DH and I are doing better and I want to thank you all again for your well wishes. It really means a lot. Can't thank you all enough.
Soooo, Im not the only POAS queen out there hey!!!????
FGS, I promised not to POAS next time but I had my toes crossed as I was typing.
When I got all of my Neg's in the cycle it did make me feel worse and worse everyday, and yes I did loose hope in the end, but it did help me accept and be at peace with the result, before the dreaded phonecall, especially since the Crinone held off AF for me.
In saying that, when I did go for my bloods last Fri, I still held on to even a 1%chance it could sill be positive, even though deep down I knew It wasnt........the phonecall still does make you hit reality with a bit of a thump, prob just not as hard.
(is too early to know still FGS X)
Don't underestimate the side effects of that Crinone girls, I had the whole list.
On a more brighter note, you all deserve to be spoilt rotten, be happy and so very excited, you are all being so so strong!XXXX
Been noticing that the crinone has been coming out pinkish since last night - and progressively getting worse. Tonight the applicator thing came out with blood on it. Pretty sure AF is here tomorrow. I have a feeling that this ones going to be more painful than ever.
Feeling really, really down - even though I pretty much knew the result - there was always that tiny glimmer of hope...
Sigh.
Good luck to all you other wonderful, strong women - this forum is due for some BFP soon - suuuurely.
Oh FGS - I'm so sorry. BUT I read that the crinone can cause some bleeding, and mine was coming out a little pinkish after 3 days. Perhaps thats what you were noticing or even a scratch caused by the applicator? I know its always easier to be positive about someone elses cycle but you know what they say about it not being over till its over!
Its amazing how you ride with the bumps with the other women on this forum I feel horrible that you are feeling down and wish there was something else I could say to cheer you up.
How are you all going? Been a busy week for you? Keeping your minds off the mind numbing questions? Hope you're all doing well and are looking forward to your respective weekends.
Hi MC. Nice to see you've popped in here too. Trust all is well with you and your DH. How are your plans coming along for your next cycle? Do you even have to do one as you have your lovely little snowbub. I didn't get any so I don't know what happens there.
FGS, I don't know what to say except that I really feel for you and know (to a degree) what is going through your mind and why. You know that's what happened to me. I'm still hoping for you that you will grace us with good news and soon.
What about you other ladies? Are you experiencing anything different this month/cycle? I've only done the one cycle and was told everything I felt was normal. Anybody got any good tips we can use for next time?
BJ - I don't know about the Estrogen patches... I am normally one of those people who want to know everything about everything... but with this - I am almost happier being in the dark so that I don't keep overanylysing things (it's not working.. lol)
MF and MC - so nice to see you pop your head back in the 'madhouse' - good to see you're both doing better
LEABIE - that will teach you for buying dodgy HPT haha... I don't yet have a favourite... maybe the First Response Early Response ones.. but actually, I am sure the first on that ever registers a BFP for me will be my new 'favourite'
SHAREE - I know what you mean about riding other peoples 'waves' - seriously... when I was in here with MC and MF - it was a complete rollercoaster and I was totally gutted when I read the 'results' emails that I was bawling my eyes out.
AFM - still no AF... weird browny/pinky crinone bits still... and I thought it was getting a bit heavier yesterday, so I called the clinic. they said if theres no full-flow by Saturday to still come in for a BT - but not to get my hopes up... OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know, if it's over, I just want it to be OVER... I dont want to have to toddle off at 7am on a Saturday morning for a BT that I have to wait all day for the result of.. and then... the other thing... is I still hold that teeny, tiny bit of hope..!
Lol... I just realised my Ticker is wrong... it says 1 day til testing.... but it's 2 days...
Hello Ladies sorry no personals just finally getting a chance to jump into this thread in between work.
Well had IUI on Sat 30th Jan with what I hope was two eggs, Scan earlier that week had shown two follies one in each ovary so hopefully they were both released. Been on Clexan since Sunday, pregnyl booster last night and another one on Saturday. BT tomorrow to check Prog levels and then the big one BT 15th won't get results till the 16th hoping af doesn't rear her ugly head before then.
Best of luck to you all and bring on the BFP's
Sharee- NO! I know that we agreed POAS was a good idea in certain circumstances but too early miss! I've promised myself not to do it til tues, day before my BT. Seriously I don't think I've read of anyone getting a BFP only 7dp2dt so don't give up yet ok. Give it a few more days and try again.
WB - all the best, hopefully your 2ww will fly past with a nice surprise at the end
FGS - how are you going honey? BT is tomorrow? Despite everything I hope that the result tomorrow shocks you with a BFP. I will be thinking of you.
Our Internet at home is still not working so I am still doing this off my phone so I apologise to the lovely ladies that I have missed..... I hope that you are all hanging in there and not going too crazy. Easier said than done!
I've passed the half way mark but am finding it hard to keep positive. My heart just trying to protect itself I suppose. I'm still getting regular twinges and odd cramps but my BB's are not really that tender anymore although they are still a tad bigger than usual. Otherwise no symptoms that couldn't be explained with prog support or impending AF. I don't think AF will show up before BT this time though seeing as I was on such a rediculously short cycle. Looks like I'll have to stick it out. I'll POAS tues and we'd though just to prepare myself but I just can't shake this negative feeling and regularly bursting into tears. Sometimes this is just too hard!
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Hey BJ, we are over the half way - on the home stretch, I'm with you on the negativity and the bursting into tears - but I have a good feeling about your cycle for what thats worth
So Sharee the idiot poas again this morning still negative
sending you all the very best for your upcoming BT. I was a POAS queen and would drive me insane when i was using the boosters! but i guess we just do this to ourselves!
if ever i thought this was not going to happen it was to me. after 15 cycles there is still a long way to go, i guess im just trying to say please keep the faith, i know some days are darker than others. but i am hopping for you all
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This is my 3rd and I'm sorry to say it doesn't get easier, right now I am having 100 emotions in a day. Convinced that this is the one, then convinced that it hasn't worked just like the others.....but no matter how hard it is and no matter how I can't imagine picking myself up from another disappointment....I can't give up. And obviously neither can you. Don't rule this one out just yet though ok, it's good to be prepared but you have to keep a little bit of hope.
A lot of people don't like POAS, and when you're taking HCG it really is just the drug that you're seeing, but hey, we do crazy things in this crazy 2WW! (I even POAS once when I was full of Pregnyl, just to remember what a positive POAS looked like
) My main justification for POAS is that I'm on a drug that I have to stop taking AS SOON as I find out I'm UTD... that's my excuse, and I'm sticking to it!
So I'm naturally a bit crushed. I had a +ve POAS on CD23 when I had my chem preg, so assume that if I was UTD now, it would show up (I'm on CD28). Big *SIGH*
all the best and I really hope that you're all doing well. Healthy, relaxed and not too crazy.
You know that's what happened to me. I'm still hoping for you that you will grace us with good news and soon.
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